Life is going with every
breath I take. I wake up, do all stuffs and go back to my 4x6 bed every day. One
day I will going to sleep permanently on somewhere which will definitely be 4x6. I read these lines somewhere on a grave.
मंजिल तो मेरी यहीं थी,
बस जिन्दगी गुजर गयी यहाँ तक आते
आते |
In my routine life I don’t remember
this. I take decision only on behalf of my experiences which happen with people
around me. What they are doing with me, what they talk about me, what they want
me to do, what they think of me, all these things matter to me a lot. All I want
is my impression should be good on each & everybody. I even don’t care
about right or wrong. I want to defeat everybody who are running with me in this nonstop
race. Race is for money, name and respect. This is how my life was going on.
Who I am?
I don’t know.
and one day...
On Sunday evening I usually go Udaipur
for having a balance in life. That day decided to go God Shree Jagdish temple
for worship of God and when I reached there it was time to start the aarti (Hindu religious
ritual of worship in which lights from wicks soaked in ghee or camphor is
offered to deities & song is sung in praise of the deity). I felt very
blessed because I haven’t been in an aarti for very long time. The aarti was
around for more than half an hour and it was really a blissful moment for me. ,the
Jagdish temple is very famous temple and it is around 500years old, When aarti
was started I also started to sing it as it was going on I completely forgot
myself and I surrendered there. I was dancing, clapping, singing like anything.
There was not a single thought in my mind at that time. There was around 200
persons but I didn’t think a single time what they were thinking for me. This was
really a heavenly experience for me. I was not thinking for name, money,
respect or anything else. All I wanted to be in that moment endlessly.
Who I was that time..??
I know that for sure. It was me, the real one. It was the soul who is unmeasurable
always in synchronization with peace.
How it was happened?
Because that time my mind was not active, the mind which is always
asynchronous in nature. The mind which is surrounded by thoughts, emotions and feelings. Mind who
takes decision on behalf of experiences not instincts. Experience which of others & instincts of self.
Whose mind it is? Whose thoughts it is? Whose decisions it is?
It is mine. My mind is made by me only as my thoughts too. But it is
always asynchronous with nature. It always wants to make itself superior by
doing anything. In this race it always make itself miserable. I am so habitual to live with my asynchronous mind that even I have
blissful moments but I don’t realize them. I am so much habitual to my thoughts
and my configurations that I don’t even notice it. You may think asynchronous mind is right, there is nothing wrong in it & everybody is like it, than i will ask you,"When do you feel most happiness? With thoughtful mind or with peaceful soul?"
Every Time its not right to follow people. Sometime we should follow our instinct too.
Have you noticed it ever for you?
Actually we are so busy in our life that we don't even have time to see that what is reality & what is illusion? I noticed it because in my routine life I was so much obsessed with
people around me so that I never gave it a thought. I always follow their wish
to make them happy and feel good for me. On Sunday suddenly environment changed
and soul which is resisting inside my body come to me by that way. I realized that there
is something inside every one of us and it live always in peace which is relentlessly synchronized with nature. After all we all will going to die one day and its our choice to know the truth or to die with the lies. All we need to
make our self sensible and peaceful so that we can be in synchronization with
our soul instead of our asynchronous mind.
At last I wish you a Synchronous Mind with Soul.
Thank you for reading it. Kindly share and comment on what you feel
after reading it.
#aazaadiyaan
